Ramblings of an Old, Romantic Soul

'What happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas'...NOT!  Not anymore you POS.  The secret is out and no matter what the verdict in court was, you are guilty as sin.  The girls know, their family knows, the lawyers know, the neighbors know, YOU know, and most importantly GOD knows.  It will come back to you. I am still trying to get my head around the verdict, but I am in a much better place than I was Monday.  Sure, I can drive myself crazy thinking about it - the how's, the why's, etc.  But the plain truth is, we will never fully know why the verdict came down as it did.  I have to wonder if the verdict was a gift from God for the girls - can you imagine the burden they would carry knowing their testimony put their father in jail?  Perhaps someone else, something else, will come along and he'll land in jail, right where he is supposed to be, but it won't be on the girls' shoulders.  All I know is there is a reason why things happened as they did.  That's it.

What a load of crap. We have truth on our side, but where is the justice?  I am still trying to wrap my brain around the fact that this man was found not guilty of all his crimes.  That he was free to walk out of that court room and to continue to live his life as if nothing has happened.  May he rot. I've heard all the platitudes:  'God works in mysterious ways'; 'Karma is a bitch'; 'He's already lost everything'; 'He will get his somewhere down the road', etc.  The only one I agree with, somewhat, is 'The girls have already won'.  Yes, they have.  They faced their abuser and exposed the ugly secret, exposed him for the monster he is.  They can move on and live their life.  They are free.  But how sweet it would have been to know that others believed them, validated their story? We'll never know why he was found not guilty.  The only explanation can be 'reasonable doubt'.  Or someone got to the jury, which wouldn't

Well, it's almost time for the trial to start.  I leave tomorrow ~ will I get a call today, this evening, saying it has been postponed once again?  Considering it's 4:15, I think not, but one never knows.  And we were told that there will be no more postponements...but again, one never knows. What a great feeling it will be to finally have this behind us.  It will be a huge relief to me. I can't even begin to imagine how my sister and nieces are feeling.  This had dragged on now for over a year.  And what will the outcome be?  Will justice be served for my nieces?  Is he going to pay for the crimes he committed against them?  All sorts of thoughts and questions are racing through my mind, making it pretty difficult to actually think even one sane thought.  Will he take a plea at the last minute?  Will he finally realize what he's putting his daughters through and wake up, save them from testifying against him?  Will he drop the arrogance and ask their forgiveness, or