Saturday, September 25, 2010

Vegas

'What happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas'...NOT!  Not anymore you POS.  The secret is out and no matter what the verdict in court was, you are guilty as sin.  The girls know, their family knows, the lawyers know, the neighbors know, YOU know, and most importantly GOD knows.  It will come back to you.

I am still trying to get my head around the verdict, but I am in a much better place than I was Monday.  Sure, I can drive myself crazy thinking about it - the how's, the why's, etc.  But the plain truth is, we will never fully know why the verdict came down as it did.  I have to wonder if the verdict was a gift from God for the girls - can you imagine the burden they would carry knowing their testimony put their father in jail?  Perhaps someone else, something else, will come along and he'll land in jail, right where he is supposed to be, but it won't be on the girls' shoulders. 

All I know is there is a reason why things happened as they did.  That's it.  Plain and simple.  There is a reason and somewhere down the road, in the not so distant future, we will understand it all.

But really ~ what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas - hell no!  Your secret is out and shouted from the rooftops!

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Truth and Justice?

What a load of crap.

We have truth on our side, but where is the justice?  I am still trying to wrap my brain around the fact that this man was found not guilty of all his crimes.  That he was free to walk out of that court room and to continue to live his life as if nothing has happened.  May he rot.

I've heard all the platitudes:  'God works in mysterious ways'; 'Karma is a bitch'; 'He's already lost everything'; 'He will get his somewhere down the road', etc.  The only one I agree with, somewhat, is 'The girls have already won'.  Yes, they have.  They faced their abuser and exposed the ugly secret, exposed him for the monster he is.  They can move on and live their life.  They are free.  But how sweet it would have been to know that others believed them, validated their story?

We'll never know why he was found not guilty.  The only explanation can be 'reasonable doubt'.  Or someone got to the jury, which wouldn't surprise me.  Everything I thought has been tossed out the window.  I thought our witnesses were stronger (from what I heard from others in the courtroom); the defense witnesses were weak; the SA did a great job in poking holes in the defenses 'reasonable doubt' presentation; that truth and goodness would win over lies and evilness.  And now I am left trying to fathom, trying to make sense of it all.

I feel as though I am in a bad dream, that someone is going to call and say 'just kidding!'...I keep going over and over in my mind the scenarios...it doesn't matter.  I will never understand.  I thought I would be okay with whatever the outcome, but I am not.  I am angry, sad, confused, dismayed.  What faith I had in the our justice system is null and void.  This is truly a travesty of justice.

I am happy the girls feel they have won.  They are strong, and brave, and courageous.  They can put this behind them now and move forward....he doesn't have any hold on them, for the secret is out.  I am happy for them.  I only wish truth and justice had been served: my nieces, my entire family, all our supporters, know that it was not.  His lawyer knows that justice was not served ~ this man defends child molesters for a living; he knows when a story is true or not...there is no way he can say those girls were lying.  What a sad, horrible man to defend such people.  I hope he rots.

We will never know the reasons why.  I know I must move forward, as my brave nieces and sister are doing.  It is what it is, right?  Truth and justice.  What a load of crap.

Friday, September 10, 2010

Trial

Well, it's almost time for the trial to start.  I leave tomorrow ~ will I get a call today, this evening, saying it has been postponed once again?  Considering it's 4:15, I think not, but one never knows.  And we were told that there will be no more postponements...but again, one never knows.

What a great feeling it will be to finally have this behind us.  It will be a huge relief to me. I can't even begin to imagine how my sister and nieces are feeling.  This had dragged on now for over a year.  And what will the outcome be?  Will justice be served for my nieces?  Is he going to pay for the crimes he committed against them?  All sorts of thoughts and questions are racing through my mind, making it pretty difficult to actually think even one sane thought.  Will he take a plea at the last minute?  Will he finally realize what he's putting his daughters through and wake up, save them from testifying against him?  Will he drop the arrogance and ask their forgiveness, or will he still maintain his innocence and the smug demeanor he possesses?

Only God knows what is going to happen.  We can only wait and see.  I ask that God be with all of us next week; that the angels will surround us and the court room; that He will give wisdom and truth to both the judge and the jury.  We wait.  We see.