Today is the day set aside to honor all mothers. It is the day we call to mind that woman who raised us, who sacrificed for us, who kissed our booboos and made us feel better. As I grow older, I realize how much my own Mom sacrificed for me and my six siblings...I am amazed at how much she did, every day, and how much she continues to do now. She is a role model for what a wife and mother should be. Is she perfect? Hell no, but she would do anything for her children and she loves us all unconditionally. I love her and am proud to call her Mom. I cherish every day I have with her.
But this day is bittersweet for me. I am happy for my sisters, my friends, my family...to all those who have this day to celebrate. I only wish I could celebrate as a mother. For as long as I remember, my dream was to be a Mommy -I wanted lots of children. As I got older, I knew the 'many' wouldn't happen, but I truly believed I would have at least one or two, twins perhaps. It never happened. My husband and I married late, and we were never able to conceive. I have come to terms with my barren uterus. I have come to terms that I will never have a child call me 'Mommy' and look at me with unconditional love. Yet, there are days, such as today, when sadness overwhelms me. Or when I see a commercial of a mother and child, my heart still aches. I know I am loved by nieces, I know I am a mother figure to some, but it isn't the same. They are not my own, they did not come from my loins.
My hope for all mothers on this day is that you realize how lucky and fortunate you are. Although your children may not be perfect, they are a gift to be cherished. As hard as motherhood may be, count your blessings and know your work, your love, is not in vain.
I do know I am blessed. I was blessed with a wonderful, kind, loving husband. I have two beautiful 'baby girls' (my cats)...I have a good life. We don't always understand why life takes us down the roads it does, we can only get in the driver's seat and make the best of it. Life is good.
So, to all my mother friends and family - I hope you have a wonderful day...relish in all the love that is thrown your way and count each and every blessing.