Who am I?
I recently retired and my husband and I moved to Florida, leaving most of our families behind. There are days when I miss the family, days when I do not.
One would think that being recently retired would be a good thing, and indeed, it is. However, I have come to the conclusion that retiring and relocating should not have happened at the same time. I should have stopped working, adjusted to the new life of a lady of leisure, started projects, then moved. Instead, it all happened at once and I am having a hard time adjusting. Not to say I don't like my free time - it's just that there is A LOT of free time. And now that my husband has been working, I am left to fend for myself.
I haven't made any friends, but I don't really want to make the effort. I have come to realize that I am not the 'people person' I once thought I was. And that's okay. I am quite content to be at home on my computer, writing poetry, playing bejeweled or mahjong, surfing the net. I have projects lined up and thoughts of volunteering...thoughts...the projects are slowly taking shape, the volunteering not so much. And that's okay.
I think one of the hardest things to get used to is realizing that there is no deadline for anything. That can be good and bad. But I don't have to start my project today - if I don't, I can start tomorrow, or the next day, or the next. While working, we tend to be on such a schedule - be at work at a certain time, eat lunch at a certain time, finish deadlines at certain time, leave work at a certain time...life revolves around a clock and each minute is pretty much scheduled. It ain't so anymore! I am free...as much as I wanted to be free, I am very much surprised at just how hard it has been to adjust.